Kerry has kidney stones

On Thrusday march 26, 2009 at 12:45 am Kerry came into our bedroom in lots of pain. Asking us to take her to the ER. This is what I look like when I am sleep deprived!
Kelly drinking a sprite

He is trying to stay awake

OUCHY!! Kerry's 1st IV that she can rememeber.

She looks good even though she is in lots of pain.

Dr. S. had X-Rays and a CT scan ran to determine she has Kidney stones! He wanted her to stay in the hospital but, they gave her some meds and flushed an IV thru her and she felt well enough to go home. She finally passed it that weekend but still having some pain, so she must have another one. Bless her heart. If having a kidney stone is worse than delivering a baby, she will do great. But, please let's wait on that! We were in the ER for 9 hrs! Kerry slept on the bed, I slept on an examing bed and Kelly slept in a chair. We were all snoring at one time and the nurse came to see if we were ok. Kelly has kidney stones and DR. S. said that they were in the genes to pass down, he called Kelly a stone maker! We got a big laugh out of that one. The ER nurse told us that there were 3 cases of kidney stones that night. Must be something in the H2O.

Beauty Comes in All Shapes and Sizes

On March 20,2009 Kerry entered her first beauty contest. I suggested it of course and she decided she wanted to try it. We bought the dress on cr@igslist "cheap". It was a really good deal. She did a lot of practicing and sometimes with a coach. She wanted to make herself proud. She did a great job. I started her morning off by making her breakfast. she went to school a half day and I took the day off. I picked her up at noon. Her Mom was there, she had brought Kerry lunch. We went to Gallatin to Belk's where she had her makeup done. We then went to Carolyn's to get her hair fixed, then we head home to chill and then get dressed. Kerry was # 31 out of 43 girls. She had the time of her life. She didn't place but came out of the holding room grining and said" I am doing this next year". Too funny! She did great on stage, very poised, she looked like she had being doing pageants all her life. When they went abck on stage in groups of 5 she had taken her shoes off! Her feet were hurting! LOL!! I told kelly you can sure tell that Kerry is his child because comfort is all she cares about! If she had been mine, a little longer in pain would be ok! I am so proud of Kerry! A year ago you would have never caught her anywhere near a beauty pageant much less participating. Congrats Kerry on making a new step in life. I am so glad you had fun! Kerry
A true Beauty

A father daughter moment

The Blackwell's

The back of her dress.

the front of her dress.

the hair

The make-up
As you all know, I loved being in the beauty contests I was in. I have tried to instill in kerry that no matter your size, you can still be beautiful!

SWEET 16 PARTY

On Oct 25, 2008 Kelly and I hosted Kerry's Sweet 16 Birthday Party at MawMaw and Poppa's house. We started early and ended late. We had a beautiful but cold day. Kerry and I decorated while Kelly and Daddy smoked the Boston Butts and the Bologna. (Yum-O) After decorating Kerry adn I ran home to get dressed and started picking up the guests. Ariel met us at our house. We picked up Matthew and Jasemine. Once we arrived back to the party, Kelly adn Uncle Dale started the bonfire while ran up to the house to get the food. I took Kelly's truck, as I got out of the truck, I slammed my hand in the door and broke my hand! What me get hurt??? You gotta be kidding! LOL!

I tuffed it out through the entire party and even helped clean up, of course by the end of the party, my hand was hurting so bad, I enlisted the kids (guests) to help. Bad hostess I know but I was hurting soo bad! Kerry played matchmaker at her party, she got Danielle and Matthew hooked up. It was soo cute seeing them holding hands. Awe, young love!

Everyone had a wonderful time!

After we got back home adn everything unloaded, kelly adn I went to the ER while Kerry crashed at home. She had partied too much! At the ER they said I just smashed my hand. On Monday I went to the DR and it's broke- hairline fracture- to me that's broke. It hurts like a MUG!!!

Oct 26 is Kerry's birthday.

THIS IS WHAT 16 LOOKS LIKE

MAYBE, SHE DOESN'T THINK I AM SO WICKED!

DALE GIVING KERRY THE KEYS TO NANNY'S CAR!

IF A BOY ASKS YOU OUT, THIS IS WHAT I AM GOING TO DO TO HIM!

THE BIRTHDAY GIRL

LET THE PARTY BEGIN!

THE GANG

THE CAKE

TREATS

WICKED STEP-MOM

PARTY FAVS

LET IT GO

Saturday Kerry received a letter from her Mom. Good for you April for writting your daughter a letter, I thought, till Kerry told me the jest of the letter. We also got some of April's mail. Made out to her last name when she was married to MY husband and to an address she hasn't lived at for at least 8 years. Is she dodging bills? Doesn't she know it doesn't matter what address bills go to, you are still resonsible. Responsible? Oh yeah, that is a word that isn't in her vocabulary very often. Sorry... It's true...Anyway, I guess the letter carrier messed up. So Kerry says the letter was strange and she'd better call her Mom to make sure everything was OK.
I asked Kerry what the letter said(trying not be be too nosey).She said that it said something about her Mom knowing where she messed up in raising Kerry, by tring to be her best friend instead of her Mom. Kerry looks at me and said, I know...., I know...
She then said, she really didn't understand what her Mom was trying to say. I asked if she needed me to read it and try to explain it. She said, "No. I just put it up 'cause I didn't want to get mad. She is just being silly."
She called her Mom and then Bubba came to pick up her mail. I haven't seen April since she called Kelly to tell him she was taking him to court to get full custody of Kerry again.I guess she is scared to face us.
Later, Kerry and I went to the Outlet Mall and did some shopping. We had a really good time. We went out to eat and she brought up the letter again. The letter must have really put a strain on her 'cause she said that she knew that it hurt her Mom for her to live with us but, she knew herself that she was in a better place. That she didn't like for her Mom to say that Kerry really needed to be with her instead of us. I told Kerry that her Mom just misses her and at those times she is being selfish to make Kerry feel guilty about having fun at our house. I told Kerry that she needed to look out for herself and to enjoy what little time she had being a kid, becasue she was going to have to actually grow up sooner than she really wants to. I mean, come on, let it go... You don't work. You are sick adn not able to take care of yourself much less a teenager. Your husband doesn't have a legal paying job. (you know what I mean). How in the crap are you going to raise a teenager that is always wanting to go. That takes money, you now something you don't have 'cause you don't have a J O B... When crap like that ahppens, it makes me want to take that crazy ED and put her in a triangle hold! Just let her pass out... Let her know she is messing with the wrong person. Wait.. She knows that because that is why she hasn't been around for the last 2 months!
So sorry for teh ranting but I gots to Let it GO!

It's Offical!!

I have graduated to the offical Step-Mom Haters group. Yep, Kerry hates me. At least she did for a day!!! We have had sooooooo much Drama over the last week, it's not even funny! Long story short... Kerry thinks of her cousin as her boyfriend.. EWE>>> I know, GROSS... Remember, I just got custody of her from her crazy mom.. Oh yeah, crazy Mom knew she had these feelings.. Didn't say anything 'cause she thought we knew... She got a major tongue lashing from me about keeping things like this from us.. I mean come on,, we tell her everything.... Not anymore... Kerry says all they did was kiss, she has spent the night there... Trust me she is going to see my OBGYN next week. OH and another thing, this cousin is 20 years old... Yes a total freak!!! She is not allowed over at Nanny's anymore unless, Kelly, Me, Ethel or Kristy is there to supervise.. Cousin lives next house over.... This cousin is part of the same family that we had problems with when Kerry skipped school. This family has been nothing but trouble for us since we got custody of Kerry.
Kelly is ready to beat the crap out of him. I said something to Kelly about going to the DA because we know that he is talking to a 13 year old in OH. I have never trusted this young man since they moved beside Nanny. I had a gut feeling he was no good.
Kelly told Kerry yesterday that she needed to straighten up because he was sick of all this drama that has been going on since she moved in. He told her that what Angie says is the Law around here as well as what I(Kelly) say around here is the law and if she didn't like it, then she was gonna be miserable for the next 3 years. She is not moving in with her Mom until after she graduates High School. Kerry came home crying and asked me to forgive her for saying that she hated me, she really doesn't.. I hugged and told her I forgave her.
Please pray that Kerry does realize that her feelings are morally wrong. I did get the Bible out and read to her in the Bible where is talks about how wrong incest is. Please pray for Kelly and I to have the patience to deal with a teenager. I know that God wants me to raise her in Godly ways but the Devil has a hold of her and she is enjoying his grasp.

Acceptance

"It’s sad that society tells fat [insert any number of looksist descriptors here] people that we will be lucky to find someone who appreciates us as just as we are. Like it’s some sort of great and rare sacrifice on the part of (non-fat) others to actually find us attractive."( I read this on Fashionistas! blog)

You know, this is something I struggle with everyday. I am FAT!! There I said it... I know that I am fat and I don't need anyone telling me that I am. I am also BEAUTIFUL, CARING, LOVING and pretty much a good person all around. Yes, I have my faults but, they are small faults. Hopefully Kelly will say the same if you ask him. I love that my husband makes me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. When I am around him, I am not fat. I am a runway model because of the way he makes me feel. I have a coworker who is a good size but feels like she is as big as I am and is always making comments that she wishes she had my confidence. She says that I am skinny on the inside. Maybe so, but the best thing is, I have confidence of who I am.

I am a wife, a child of GOD, a martial arts student, a friend, a co-worker, a daughter, a sister, a step-mom, etc. I hate to do laundry but do it anyway, I hate to wash dishes, but do it any way. I hate to grocery shop- I am a tight-wad! But do it anyway. I hate to walk for exercise, but I know that if I don't, my joints will stiffen up and then I won't be able to do anything I enjoy to do.

In a few weeks I will be shooting a commercial for a plus-size lingerie store in the 'Boro. This will be the second time I have does this for them. It's fun to do and I get to live out my dream of being a "model". It doesn't hurt to dream to be a model when you are a plus size woman. I know that I am pretty, heck, I've been told that ALL my life. I don't have the big head. I always tell my step-daughter, if you don't love yourself, no one will fall in love with you.... I had a co-worker to tell me that he thought I was beautiful because of the way I carry myself, I walk into a room to be noticed but not to be the center of attention. I carry myself so that I am approachable, but so people know that they can't run all over me.

I owe my Mom for the self-esteem she has given me. She always told me, I am no better than anyone, and no one is better than me. Yep, that's right. You go Momma! My Mom is a self reliant person, she doesn't need anyone to help her. Now, that is good sometimes and bad at other times. She is very impatient, another quality I have inherited. She is a leader and no matter what my brother says, she was a good mother. Yeah, she was hard on us at times but, hey, we aren't in Jail or living with her and mooching off her or anyone else.

So everyone, let's accept people for the qualities that they can give to us, or the things we can learn from them, not for the color of their skin, the size of their body, the color of their eyes or the religion they choose to worship. We need more acceptance in this world and with each other.
Peace out with All of God's love-Ang

Back Again

It's been a while since I last posted. In December 2007, I got sick from endometreosis and had to have an emergency hysterectomy. That really sucked since Kelly and I hadn't had children yet. Luckily he had Kerry before we had gotten back together! I am in the adventures of being a step-mom. She is a great kid, when she is not being influenced by bad decision makers.

The best thing that has happened since my surgery is that Kerry has moved in with us. The first 3 weeks were great! She is a good helper. She LOVES to cook! Yeah me! Since I have Karate and Tai Chi 3 nights a week. The beginning of the 4th week she got a wild hair stuck up her butt and decided to skip school. OK, I know most kids skip school, but I never did! My Mom had the fear of GOD in me!! Anyway, her mom decided to take her lunch and Kerry wasn't there. My MIL called to see if Kerry was sick, 'cause she wasn't at school! I totally freaked out. I called Kelly at work and he went to Hartsville looking for her. His cousin had her but lied that she didn't know where Kerry was. Kelly busted some tail! She is grounded for quite a while. Kelly had the cousin arrested for contributing to the delinquency of a minor. Don't mess with his baby!!! Any who, we should be done with this issue at the end to the month.

I passed my blue belt test!! I should have tested in February but I was afraid to do so since I had been on so many drugs the month of December and January. Here I am breaking the string to prove that I am ready to take on the responsibility of being a blue belt! See the concentration on my face. Luckily I didn't have my tongue out! I was the only adult to get a belt that night. WAY TO ANG!!

This past weekend was the 1st weekend Kerry had spent at her Mom's since we have gotten custody of her. It went well, but of course Mom and the BF is kissing butt! Kerry's words, not mine. I have stronger wording. I have gotten my 1st payback, since becoming a full time step-mom. Last weekend I took Kerry shopping. NO MORE!! She is a grunge wearer but wants to be more girly. So I took her to LB and the clothes were TOO Girly. Then we went to RW and couldn't agree on anything except jeans. While she was in the dressing room trying on clothes I made her try on, I sent my Mom a text to apologzie for all the grief I gave her as a kid. By the time we finished shopping I had a headache~! At least Kerry and I were still talking....