Friday, September 21, 2007

LOVE

Love... such a powerful word that people use to easily these days.

I love my husband, my dogs, my mom, my dad... get the picture. How many people actually love their friends? I can honestly say , I do. There are a lot of people in my life that I am not afraid of telling them that I love them, but then are those I do and am afraid to say that I do for fear of how they may take it.

I am aching for the day that I can experience the love of motherhood. Don't get me wrong, I love Belle more anyone could (can), but she's not with me all the time and I ache to have the unconditional love that a mother-daughter can have.

The ladies karate class is going to Tully's Saturday night! I can't wait.. We are going have so much fun, great fellowship...

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Half way to Black Belt

Last week I took my Purple Belt test. I was sooo nervous, I've never been that nervous before. I think it was because we practiced so much for the show in August and then rushed to learn everything before the test. Bu Kwang Ja Nim is such a good teacher that I passed with mostly E's. I didn't get to the belt presentation so BKJN gave me my belt last night before Tai Chi. I also got a new sash for Tai Chi- Green.

We are learning a new form in Tai Chi-the Chen Movement. It is totally different than the Yang movement. A lot more depper stances and quicker. I am not sure how I feel about it yet. Last night was the 2nd class.

Last Thursday I went to the foot doctor for my Turf Toe. Dr. Nuss- he's really nice, he has worked on Pete Rose, Paris Hilton and other famous folks. He gave me a shot in my foot and said the reason my Turf Toe is taking so long to heal is because of the Fibromaligia. Thanks!

That night I went to bed at 8pm and good thing because, Mother in Law called and said Uncle was dying. K said he couldn't go and watch him die. Well, being the nice girl I am, I could let MIL be by herself, so I went to the hospital. MIL took a nerve pill before I got there, at 2am she was upset so I told her to take another one. SHe later started getting sick at her stomach. I called DH and told him to bring sick stomach pills for her. She took one and then basically passed out on me in the other bed. Uncle passed away at 3:27 am. This was the 1st death for his Nurse, since I had been there with My Flossie, I was a pro.... I called DH afterwards and have him come be with me, I had to sign the death certificate and other paperwork since MIL was out cold.... We didn't get to his Nanny's till after 5am. I then had to take care of everything the rest of the day.
No sleep, death, grave, funeral clothing, services.... What am I missing out on???? SLEEP!!!! Oh yeah, found out MIL had taken a total of 3 nerve pills, no wonder she was out cold!

The day of the services MIL passed out as the pallbearers were taking Uncle's body to the hearse. Called the ambulance to come get MIL and take to her the hospital. Wonder what kind of pills she took? She was put in the hospital for dehydration and exhaustion, extreme....
She was out before 8am the next day. Extreme...

I still haven't caught up on my sleep even though I am trying. So congrats to me on achieving my Purple Belt.. I've also been asked to join the Black Belt club. Still trying to decide when I should or if I should. I know that black belt is a goal, I just don't know how long it will take me. Ki-Hap!

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

TIME IS SLOW...

I have had an eventful life since I've last written. K's Uncle is not getting better, of course we knew that. I went to the nursing home sat. evening and the nurse on duty hadn't given him his pain meds all day. When I would ask her to give him a shot she would put me off, I finally called the charge nurse and told her like it was.

Dr. Reed had the ambulance to come get him and take him to the hospital. He is now on a morphine drip. He is still holding on. Nan did tell him it was OK to "go home". Belle got ticked off at her Mom because she wouldn't come to the hospital and be with her. Belle hung up on her 2x. She said her Mom was drinking (which she shouldn't since she has Crohn's) and that was why she wouldn't come, Belle said that probably wasn't all she was doing.... Poor thing I felt so bad for her. Ex-wife then had the nerve to call K and make it his fault, like we were putting Belle up to be mad at her... She is such a quack!!!

Work is good.

I did take my belt test last night, I am now a Purple belt!! I've been asked to join the Black Belt Club.. I don't know what that entails, I'll have to find out and then make a decision.