Kerry has kidney stones

On Thrusday march 26, 2009 at 12:45 am Kerry came into our bedroom in lots of pain. Asking us to take her to the ER. This is what I look like when I am sleep deprived!
Kelly drinking a sprite

He is trying to stay awake

OUCHY!! Kerry's 1st IV that she can rememeber.

She looks good even though she is in lots of pain.

Dr. S. had X-Rays and a CT scan ran to determine she has Kidney stones! He wanted her to stay in the hospital but, they gave her some meds and flushed an IV thru her and she felt well enough to go home. She finally passed it that weekend but still having some pain, so she must have another one. Bless her heart. If having a kidney stone is worse than delivering a baby, she will do great. But, please let's wait on that! We were in the ER for 9 hrs! Kerry slept on the bed, I slept on an examing bed and Kelly slept in a chair. We were all snoring at one time and the nurse came to see if we were ok. Kelly has kidney stones and DR. S. said that they were in the genes to pass down, he called Kelly a stone maker! We got a big laugh out of that one. The ER nurse told us that there were 3 cases of kidney stones that night. Must be something in the H2O.

Wennie Pictures

Fifi
Sleeping on the pillow under a blanket, she thinks she is a human.

Isn't she sweet?

Joey

Joey sitting between Kelly and the chair, he's a sweetie too.

Full Moon

SOME PICTURES I TOOK OF THE LAST FULL MOON WE HAD. I WAS JUST PLAYING WITH MY CAMERA. ENJOY!

Beauty Comes in All Shapes and Sizes

On March 20,2009 Kerry entered her first beauty contest. I suggested it of course and she decided she wanted to try it. We bought the dress on cr@igslist "cheap". It was a really good deal. She did a lot of practicing and sometimes with a coach. She wanted to make herself proud. She did a great job. I started her morning off by making her breakfast. she went to school a half day and I took the day off. I picked her up at noon. Her Mom was there, she had brought Kerry lunch. We went to Gallatin to Belk's where she had her makeup done. We then went to Carolyn's to get her hair fixed, then we head home to chill and then get dressed. Kerry was # 31 out of 43 girls. She had the time of her life. She didn't place but came out of the holding room grining and said" I am doing this next year". Too funny! She did great on stage, very poised, she looked like she had being doing pageants all her life. When they went abck on stage in groups of 5 she had taken her shoes off! Her feet were hurting! LOL!! I told kelly you can sure tell that Kerry is his child because comfort is all she cares about! If she had been mine, a little longer in pain would be ok! I am so proud of Kerry! A year ago you would have never caught her anywhere near a beauty pageant much less participating. Congrats Kerry on making a new step in life. I am so glad you had fun! Kerry
A true Beauty

A father daughter moment

The Blackwell's

The back of her dress.

the front of her dress.

the hair

The make-up
As you all know, I loved being in the beauty contests I was in. I have tried to instill in kerry that no matter your size, you can still be beautiful!

I watched the love shine through.

Most Sunday’s at church, I have the pleasure of watching a young mother and her toddler during the services. I have watched the Mother grown from a child her son’s age into the woman she is today. Makes me feel a little old. Katie and her husband were married shortly after Kelly and I. Their family grew while ours didn’t, but I am happy for them. Kyler is the sweetest little boy, when he wants to be… That’s what is Nonnie says anyway. He’s only been sweet when I am around him. Kyler was in my VBS class, so I have been around him quite a bit. Anyway, back to my story… Kyler was playing with his tractor during the sermon and waving at me, I was waving back to him. Shame on me, I know I should have been listening to Bro. Tom but, Kyler is more interesting. Sorry Bro. Tom, I am a sucker for little kids… Kyler then turned to his Mom, Katie and sat in her lap. He began rubbing her neck and then he started touching her face. It was soooo sweet! All I could think was will I ever be able to have that situation? Am I jealous? In a way, yes. Does it make me not to want to be around kids? Heck NO!!! I love kids, always have and always will! I have enough friends will little ones that I don’t think I will ever lack for love from a child.
Back to Katie and Kyler… Kyler looked at his Mom with such love and adoration that I began to tear up. Then Kyler decided he wanted to love on his Daddy. He moved to Kevin’s lap and loved on him a while but quickly moved back to his Mom. After services while we were leaving church Kyler and his Nonnie were walking out the same time we were. He said Hi Ms. Angie, I said hi back. I told him he sure was sweet during services and I loved how he was loving on his Mommy. Of course, he looked at me like I was speaking another language. I pray that one day, Kelly and I will be blessed enough to adopt, soon, I really hope. I want to experience the love that Katie and Kyler shared for those few moments.

TODAY'S BLESSING

What the Lord Is Saying Today
February 27, 2009. My voice will be heard throughout the city. They will hear and obey. Rivers of living waters will flow freely. Your dry land will be watered. The desert will bloom again. The animals and even the rocks will praise Me in this hour. Children will come forth skipping and hopping. Their joy will be loud and they will not hold back their passion for Me. The King will ride through the streets with His chariot and angels assisting and accompanying Him. Yes, even the whole world will know of it and rejoice. Darkness will flee away in His presence. The ones who listen carefully to His voice and obey, these are the ones upon whom enormous favor will fall. A new order will be established. Glory to God. His presence will bring immense glory. You will know Him and He you. He loves you.Genesis 26:5 For Abraham listened to and obeyed My voice and kept My charge, My commands, My statutes, and My laws.

February 27, 2009. You are worrying about things that are out of your control. You will never be able to control this because it is the actions of someone else. You feel enormous guilt because you think your actions helped cause the problem. You are right, but it is too late to go back and change that. You have asked forgiveness from Me, and from the one that you are worrying about. Now you must forgive yourself. You have allowed Me to change you, and you can also do this through Me. You forgive others you must forgive yourself. Pray for the one now in trouble, and leave it with Me. Lay it down.James 5:16 Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much.

Emotions

Where do I begin? I have been on an emotional roller coaster for about 2 weekes now. Why you may wonder? Well, My Granny's birthday was or would have been 2/3. My Uncle Don's birthday would have been 2/11 and today would have mine and Kelly's baby's 2nd birthday. I have been wondering if I should call the Dr. and ask what the sex of the baby was. All I asked when I went to my 6 week check up after my DNC was why did we lose the baby. Dr. said the baby had a chromosomal defect. He never offered to tell me the sex, I guess if I had asked then I would know. Would that be pouring salt back on that wond that will never heal or would knowing help my wound heal?
I know that God has plans for me to me a Mom. Heck, I am a Mom, a step-mom, but still I am a parent. I love being a step-mom and yes, I would give everything and anything to have my own bio-child but, that will never happen. yes, we will adopt, when? I have no idea. Kelly is still unemployed and what agency will let us adopt with only one income?
I think the lady that had in-vitro and had 8 babies should give me one of her babies! Just kidding! Maybe....
My heart is still heavy. With all the love that I have in my life I know that I am blessed and will always miss my baby and 2/12 will always be a sad day for me. Sweet baby till me meet again in heaven, know that your Mommy and Daddy miss and love you. I know that Granny and Nanny are taking good care of you. Happy Birthday!