My Step-Daughter Hates ME.... Then She loves me...

I am soooo sick of the drama that comes along with having a step-daughter and an ED. The ED wrote step-daughter a letter with DCS's phone number and the police phone number on it and said to call her before she called either one and she and ED's husband will come and save her. Save her from what? LOVE, Stability, Happiness? I hate when she spends more than 2 days with ED because ED puts crazy crap in her head. I knew something was up when she came home on Monday because she was acting all sad and depressed. She said nothing... I knew something was wrong. Man, my gut is always on the money when it comes to her.

ED has told Step-daughter that I am the reason that she and hubby got divorced. Yea, not!!! I was living with a wack-a-do myself at the time, trying to marry his crazy butt. Ed was ceating on hubby, no the other way around. ED apparently has told her all kinds of crazy crap, because she blirted out that she hates me and has never liked me. (WHAT?) (head starts spinning around)
I told her she sure has carried out a lie for 5 years, that scared me that she could lie that good for so long. I told her I felt betrayed and how could she carry a lie like that for so long? No kidding ya'll she took the attitude in her voice and looked me dead in the eyes like she was possesed and said " I keep my friends close and my enemies closer" I had to laugh... I never thought of myself as her emeny. ED's maybe but not hers. She also said she hated me because I tried to be her Mom. I said, No, I am trying to be a Mother figure to her. Her ED is unable to act as a mother mentally, physically and emotionally, and that I felt that she needed someone to show her what a real mother and woman really is.

I advised her that everything I have done for was out of love not pity. But, from now on, there would be no more chores, allowance and extra fun for her out of me. I would continue to take her to church 'cause Lord knows she needs it. I feel like she has the devil deep in her! I am not even playing around. This kid is not grateful for anything her Dad and I have done for her.

She is all the time stealing and lying to us and I have had enough. I will continue being nice to her but any extras are out! I am sick and tired of this! Of course hubby took up for her, even when she was saying all the terrible stuff about me. How dare he. Yes, that is his daughter, but I am his wife. He knows she is wrong and told her so, but never took my side... He did tell her that he too felt betrayed because before we even got married we asked on numerous occasions if she like me and if she didn't we wouldn't get married. Her answer to that was... I wanted my Daddy to be happy and you make him happy... Well, guess what little girl... Ain't nobody happy right now except your ED because she knows that she has screwed with us once again... Please leave us the heck along... Miserable people suck... She is not happy in her marriage so she is trying to screw around with ours. I wish she would leave us along... All 3 of us... This woman is such a wack-a-do... She should be locked up! Somewhere where she can't have any contact with any of us... Yes, I now that is harsh but, that is how I feel. I really feel worse things than that but I don't want ya'll to know how messed up she has made me...

I couldn't sit still because I was so upset so I started doing laundry and cleaning and Hubby spoke to step-daughter alone. The next thing I know is, she is coming in the kitchen asking to speak to me... Being the B*tch I am suppose to be, I told her I really didn't want to hear anything else. She had said enough. She said that she really didn't mean that she hated me and that she does love me and loves that I am trying to help her have a good childhood. Yeah right... She only said that because she knows, that is what hubby wanted to hear. I told her that at this time, I still feel like she is lying because she knows that it will get her out of trouble with her Dad. Not me...I know how she is, what a liar she is. I can not trust her anymore and, I will treat her like she is a guest in my home.

This morning she rode the bus because I feel that me taking her to school is a privilage (sp?) and apparently she doesn't like those. So hate it for her...

So please pray that God will touch step-daughter's heart and let her know that I am not the evil step-mom that Ed has protrayed(sp?) me to be.

If you want to hate me go ahead... If you were there then you would be ok to feel the way I do. If you haven't experienced it... Don't Judge...

Peace out from the Not So Evil Step-Mom!